professional heartbreak

cobalt blue blouse :: H&M (love the cut outs on this one) | green denim pencil skirt :: H&M (similar here) | bright pink skinny belt :: H&M | hot pink purse :: nila anthony via lulus.com (similar) | hot pink heels :: bonnebell via lulus.com (similar) | sunglasses :: charlotte russe | earrings :: forever 21 | pocket watch necklace :: nine via urban wear (love this one) | gold chain & ribbon bracelet :: my sister (find more like it @ 2bravegirls)

So I promised a fantastic update on changes in my life earlier this week, and then failed to deliver on the specified date. There's a reason.

Early this week, I was offered a job that would have been perfect for me - significantly more money than I'm making now in an industry much closer to the one I'd like to be in at a company that seems more in line with where I want to be. They wanted me to start next week. And I was so excited - finally, a light at the end of the smelly, fish food encrusted tunnel.

And I turned it down.

Please understand - I love my office. I have fantastic co-workers (for the most part), incredible benefits and a pretty laid back atmosphere. However... it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life. To be entirely honest, the longer I stay, the more miserable I am. It's a great place and an awesome company and I have the best boss EVER. But it's not my dream.

So when this new offer came along, I jumped on it. I felt this immense pressure lift and I truly thought it was the next step in my life. I was thrilled to get away from the stinky plant, long hours and paper cut ridden, never-ending filing.

After doing some research, getting some advice and crunching some numbers, it turns out that (financially speaking) taking the job would have left me worse off than I currently am. So I emailed them Thursday night and explained the situation. It was one of the most physically painful emails I have ever written.

I already regret it.

I need ice cream.


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