please don't take what you don't need from me

There are moments when the entire world is ripped out from underneath us.

Today The last three weeks have been one of those moments.

These moments provide us with a choice: to accept them, embrace them, survive them, and grow beyond them; or to submit to them, drown in them, linger in them - to die in them.

I spent several years of my life inside of a single moment. I let it define me, control me. I let it drag me down into the darkest depths of myself, and my refusal to acknowledge it nearly destroyed me. But then... then I came back. And he came back. And we talked, and things were good, and finally I moved past it.

Then we fell apart again. And then came back together, then shattered, then nothing. Repeat. A dance I thought we would do until forever. Then, a collision so violent it caused me physical pain. Another moment, untethered, unsupported, undirected.

But I won't stay here this time. I have learned the value of movement, regardless of the direction; of putting one foot in front of the goddamn other because every single moment is a choice - a choice to keep breathing, to keep moving, to keep pushing harder than you think you can because three inches forward has got to be better than where you are now. I have learned the value of being too damn dumb stubborn to give up.

do you remember when I said you didn't break me?

[I lied.]

It's finally raining. I think I'll go for a walk.

Sometimes I think my phone is psychic. It always seems to know the exact song I need to hear.

be still and know that I'm with you

be still and know that I am here

be still and know that I'm with you

be still, be still, and know

when darkness comes upon you

and covers you with fear and shame

be still and know that I'm with you

and I will say your name

if terror falls upon your bed

and sleep no longer comes

remember all the words I said

be still, be still, and know

and when you go through the valley

and the shadow comes down from the hill

if morning never comes to be

be still, be still, be still

if you forget the way to go

and lose where you came from

if no one is standing beside you

be still and know I am

be still and know that I'm with you

be still and know I am

[-Be Still by the Fray]

please don't take what you don't need from me.

gray tank :: zara

black cami :: arizona

pink pleated skirt :: forever21

dotted tights :: h&m

heels :: maurice's

belt :: maurice's

watch necklace :: maurice's

friendship bracelets :: maurice's

black studded wrap bracelet :: charlotte russe